who am i?

Seriously? Who am I? I walked away from this weekend realizing I am:
a woman

a board member for an arts non-for-profit

living in San Francisco, in a fantastic apartment

a friend, with great friends


a muse!


throwing caution to the wind, and looking forward to seeing my family this weekend


feeling like I cannot contain my life force, that I need to create


but what?


not children


I've printed out two full seminars in Experimental Critical Theory and bought more reading material than I can get through even if I read full time in Paris.


I am going to PARIS!


I stay up until two in the morning writing


what is now the making of a porno, or erotic fiction for the pc crowd


I can smile at the past


and not regret it


and strong enough to live in the present


SO


I felt it


the jealousy


the accusation of my FABULOUS life


and that's when I realized that, yes,

I do have a fabulous life!